The kingdom of heaven is like Ten Virgins

When I seek the divine nature, should I go alone ? In faith I hope for the unseen present moment which will dispel the fear of loss for those I love. I ask myself the questions: Am I seeking the kingdom of heaven or am I seeking the presence of G-d? Could it be that if I find one the other will be there? Once I find what I am looking for, what will happen to my present life and the relationships in it.
I remember a story about the Kingdom of Heaven.

The kingdom of heaven is like Ten Virgins

The kingdom of heaven is like Ten Virgins, which took their flashlights, and went to meet the bridegroom.

Five of them were wise, and five were foolish. The foolish ones took their flashlights with them but the wise ones took their flashlights and extra batteries for their flashlights.

The bridegroom took a while to get there, so they all got tired and went to sleep. At midnight there was a cry, “Look, the bridegroom is coming; let us go out to meet him.”

All the virgins got up, and turned on their flashlights. The foolish said to the wise, “Give us your extra batteries; our light is going weak and we need more power.”

However, the wise answered them, saying, “No way, then we will not have enough batteries for you and us: Go to the store, and buy some for yourselves.”

While the foolish virgins were gone buying batteries, the bridegroom came and the wise virgins that were ready went in with him to the marriage and the door was shut.

In a little while the other virgins came from the store, saying, “Lord, Lord, open the door for us.”

However, the LORD answered, “Verily I say to you, I know you not”.

Watch, for you do not know the day or the hour when the Son of man will come for you.

How is it that the foolish are rejected from entering the Kingdom of Heaven? Am I a fool who goes alone? Will going alone, unprepared for delay or reliance on my own imagination, bring a result that was unforeseen.

The five virgins who have the extra batteries represent the true believers who are looking with eagerness to the coming of Christ. They have faith, and are determined that, whatever occurs, when Jesus returns, they will be ready.

The five virgins without the batteries represent false believers who enjoy the benefits of the Christian community without true love for Christ.

They are more concerned about the wedding than about the bridegroom. Their hope is that their association with true believers “give us some of your oil” will bring them into the kingdom at the end.

This, of course, is never the case. One person’s faith in Jesus cannot save another. The “Lord, lord” and “I do not know you” fit very well with Jesus’ condemnation of the false believers, “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven will enter.

I am listening for a knock on a door, not so I can enter in, but to open.

My hope is that I can hear the knock and when I open the door, the light of G-d’s love will fill me and dispel the darkness of fear.
That is the divine nature I seek.

I seek to be in the presence of G-d, filled with the light and love of G-d, not in a distant non-existent future, but an eternal here and now, void of fear.

Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name cast out demons, and in your name perform many miracles?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me.