Proverb of the week:

“Nourish the root not the fruit”


Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev


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Story of the week:

“”Slamming the Door Shut”  Written by Ronald L. Riedell

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“Slamming the Door Shut”

 As Noah and his family entered the Ark, the door to the Ark was shut by G-d. Noah did not close the door.


For forty days and forty nights, as the Genesis account of the flood goes, Noah and his family waited for the storm to pass. While G-d destroyed all life on earth, Noah and his family were tucked away inside of the Ark. G-d  himself saved them, along with the animals they gathered and the Ark itself.

I am not sure if I would have been on Noah’s boat?

Lent a 40 day period of  fasting and prayer. A symbol of my love for G-d. When I fast, it is one of my efforts to understand fasting and my attempt to purge myself of things that divert my attention from seeking G-d.

How can I say I love G-d, who I can’t see, when I don’t love the ones around me who I can see?  Brother Ron confesses that he does not love everyone. I cannot pretend to love others or even G-d until I learn to love myself. When I break my fast to go to events in Las Vegas, drink beer, and eat anything I want, while others are fasting makes me a hypocrite and I prove to myself that I am too weak to follow simple guidelines that were put in place to help me.


I did run into the devil or a demon in disguise at the event in Las Vegas.  She was about twenty-seven years old, beautiful, and looking me right in the eye about three inches away, knocking at the window of my soul.  She was trying to sell me a solar battery, with which I could charge my cell phone.

At my age, let us just say in my sixties, the incident might have been fatal and my soul lost to my own desires.  I was in public, so I was reasonably safe except for the thoughts running through my own dirty mind.  I found myself being sucked into the web of delusion. The only thing that saved me was looking over at the boxes of other chargers and my knowledge of sales techniques. All I did was close my eyes and the spell was broken. I went back to reality, a man at a trade show looking for ideas.

I found a good story after that situation . I will save it for the Quote for the week below.

Nothing happens without a reason and I was tempted by my own desire, by me Slamming the Door (or Windows) shut I was able to avert disaster and learn a valuable lesson: G-d is good for his word, I was tempted by my own desire but G-d always gives me a way to escape.


Quote of the week:

There was a beautiful young woman who went to bed late one night and fell right to sleep… As she was sleeping she heard a noise… When she looked over to the window in her room, she saw a large dark figure coming through it… The closer the figure got the more it looked like a large, strong young man. As the man got closer to her she became frightened… She noticed the man had handsome strong facial features as he came onto the bed…  When he got close enough for her to feel his breath…  She asked him, “What are you going to do to me?”… He replied how should I know it’s  your dream.

And GOD saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually.

Genesis 6:5

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Proverb of the week:

“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’  I do not agree.  The wounds remain.  In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens.  But it is never gone.”

― Rose Kennedy

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“The beginning of time” Written by Ronald L. Riedell

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The beginning of time

Here is something to ponder during our wait for the 14th of Nisan, Friday, April 03.

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth.  In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

The meaning of “Beginning” is by definition the place where, or time when something starts.

Beginning also suggests there is an end.

Brother Ron has been alive, as I far as I know, for almost 62 years.  Being honest with myself, I know very little about the world I live in.  I am limited to the information   I was and am exposed to by my geographic location and associations.  Therefore, what I say I know is limited to my existence and experiences.  Everyone, including me, looks at life from his or her own perspective.

There are 7.5 billion people on the planet with 6500 spoken languages.  Mandarin is the most spoken having 1.2 billion speakers.  I know very little Mandarin.  Therefore, it is obvious that there are things I will never know if they are only known in the Mandarin language.

The one thing I know for sure is that I know very little about the world and other cultures in it.  How can I know what I do not know?

What is the beginning?  If time is eternal, the beginning is an arguably a point on a time line. If the beginning is in eternity, where does the beginning begin or end, and how can time exist in eternity?

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Is birth the beginning or the end?  Is death the beginning or the end?

Speaking about the beginning, it just so happens that the 14 of Nisan, Passover, or Good Friday, will fall on the first, full moon during the spring equinox.  Every year around the 20th of March, The day is the same for everyone no matter what language you speak as long as you live on earth and can see the sun and the moon.

The beginning becomes time, within human standards with measurable increments of movement provided by the sun and the moon. With time expressed by the sun and the moon, I can know seasons for planting and harvesting as well as holidays.

The moon has 28-day cycles every month from full to new; 12 times a year.  An equinox occurs twice a year, around 20 March and 22 September.  The oldest meaning is the day when daytime and night are of approximately equal duration.

During an equinox, the Earth’s North and South poles are not tilted toward or away from the Sun, and the duration of daylight is theoretically the same at all points on Earth’s surface.

Passover is set in the sky by the Sun and Moon every year.

In the beginning, who knew? I guess God did.

O by the way….For your enjoyment

FYI (The Quartodeciman controversy arose because Christians in the churches of Jerusalem and Antioch in the Roman province of Asia celebrated Passover on the 14th of the first month (Aviv) or Nisan, while the churches in and around Rome changed to the practice of celebrating Easter on the following Sunday calling it “the day of the resurrection of our Savior”.  The difference was turned into an ecclesiastical controversy.)


Quote of the week:

Do not pass your time with people engaged in worldly affairs or share their table, in case they involve you in their illusions and draw you away from the science of stillness. For this is what they want to do. Do not listen to their words or accept the thoughts of their hearts, for they are indeed harmful. Let the labor and longing of your heart be for the faithful of the earth, to become like them in mourning. For

‘My eyes will be on the faithful of the land that they may dwell with me’ (Ps. 101:6).

If someone, who lives in accordance with the love of God comes to you and invites you to eat, go.

Saint John Chrysostom

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Proverb of the week:

“I distrust a charity that costs nothing and does not hurt.”

Pope Francis



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Story of the week:

“Fat Tuesday is February’s fool”  Written by Ronald L. Riedell

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Fat Tuesday is February’s fool

When I think of Pascha, I am not referring to the 12-storey 97,000 square feet brothel in Cologne, Germany, with about 120 prostitutes, over 80 employees and up to 1000 customers per day.

Black Painties

Pascha or Easter is the celebration of Christ’s Resurrection, and considered the most important feast of the Christian year by most Christians.  I prepare for Easter during Lent, a period of 40 days of fasting and prayer, starting on Ash Wednesday and concluding on the Thursday before Easter.  Lent helps me gain an appreciation for Christ’s ultimate sacrifice and supreme act of love and mercy for me.

In case you did not know, Ash Wednesday was this last Wednesday. Prior to Ash Wednesday was Fat Tuesday or Mardi Gras, which kicked off the beginning of lent.

Lent (Latin: Quadragesima – English: Fortieth)

Jesus spent time fasting in the desert, where he endured temptation by the devil before beginning his public ministry

There are traditionally forty days in Lent, which are marked by fasting, from both foods and festivities.  The three traditional practices during Lent are prayer (justice towards God), fasting (justice towards self), and almsgiving (justice towards neighbor).

Do not be surprised if you walk into a church and see a cloth covering, religious objects, they are being veiled for the entire forty-days of Lent.  This is seen as in keeping with the Gospel in which Jesus “hid himself” from the people.


Traditions are guidelines, not rules with consequences.  I will not judge you if you choose not to follow lent.

Quote of the week:


“No act of virtue can be great if it is not followed by advantage for others. So, no matter how much time you spend fasting, no matter how much you sleep on a hard floor and eat ashes and sigh continually, if you do no good to others, you do nothing great.”

Saint John Chrysostom

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Proverb of the week:

“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.”

Mahatma Gandhi

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“Nonfoolability”  Written by Ronald L. Riedell

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If you think that Pope Francis is not going to change anything, you are wrong.


It is first necessary to explain exactly what infallibility of the Pope is not.

Infallibility is not the absence of sin.  Nor is it a divine gift that belongs only to the pope.  Infallibility belongs to the body of bishops as a whole, when in doctrinal unity with the Pope becomes infallible.

We have this from Jesus himself, who promised the apostles and their successors the bishops, the teaching authority of the Church: “He who hears you hears me,” and “Whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven”

Pope Francis is in modern times, depending on your point of view, is a harmless old man, with the heart of a child, and the power of an absolute king, or a wolf in sheep’s clothing.

Pope Francis is a man worthy of respect and admiration because of his office.


Why am I writing about one of the most powerful men on earth?  I am writing about him because of the lack of respect people within and outside the church are giving him.

If outsiders AKA non-Christians or heterodox were mumbling about him that would be understandable.  However, when the communities of believers ravel against him or disagree with a decision he has made, I cannot sit back idly as they undermine his authority and say nothing in his defense.  Christians, who do not have any idea what the Pope represents, make outrageous claims that he is somehow tied to the “evil one”, or because of his past we cannot trust him.

Anyone who wants to do the research can find something to undermine anyone, including me.

I live in a time and a world that has grown so small that what I ate for dinner last night is public information, and where my safety is in jeopardy everyday by one risk or another.

The Pope is part of me; he is my brother, and there is too much evil going on outside the Church to condemn a religious leader for acts sometimes outside his control.  I would be doing the same thing as Pope Francis, making the same decisions based on what I know about the world.


As Paul stated to the Jews,” I became as a Jew, so that I might win Jews; to those who are under the Law, as under the Law though not being myself under the Law, so that I might win those who are under the Law; To them that are without law, as without law, that I might gain them that are without law. “

I must never question the intent of another man’s motives unless they are criminal.  May G-d bless the Pope and all other religious leaders who help make my journey here a little more tolerable. May they someday come together and become one as G-d is one .

I have brothers and know firsthand that we do not always see eye to eye.  May G-d forgive me, as I am the biggest hypocrite of all men; expecting others to change and do what I am incapable of doing myself.


Quote of the week:


‘Take heed that you do not give alms in front of others, to be seen by them; for unless you take heed,

you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.’ Again, He says: ‘When you pray, you must not be as the

hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in synagogues and at street-corners, so as to be seen by men. Truly I

say to you, they get the reward they want. . . . Moreover when you fast, do not put on a gloomy face, like the


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Proverb of the week:

“Without consequences it is just training”

Sensei Sornstein

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“Zazen Practice” Written by Ronald L. Riedell

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Zazen Practice

Sitting Practice

Zazen is meditation in a prescribed, cross-legged posture. In Zen Buddhism, zazen means, “Seated meditation, a meditative discipline that is typically the primary religious practice.”


Some people might translate the practice of the repeating Jesus Prayer (Lord Jesus Christ Have Mercy On Me A Sinner) by Orthodox monks on Mt. Athos as a “Zen-like” practice, as with the writings of the desert fathers in the Philokalia in contrast to the Buddhist writing of Siddhartha both are attempts of man to find the divine..

The desert fathers did not teach Zen and unlike Buddhism, the Philokalia has nothing to do with reincarnation or Buddhism unless you consider the resurrection of Christ a reincarnation.

However, prayer of the heart as the desert father taught does involve emptying one’s mind of worldly distraction and focusing on the Jesus Prayer.  Therefore, some people might use “Prayer of the heart” as a way of describing Zen meditation.


The practice itself of meditating on the Jesus prayer while holding a prayer rope is considered very devout by some Christians, just as sitting quiet in the practice of  Zazen, and repeating a mantra on a mala or prayer beads.

In my opinion, it is dangerous to introduce Catholic or Eastern Christian forms of mysticism using the word “Zen” to describe them because, the problem is with the terminology, not the practice, and it might be confusing to some mistaking one for the other.

As far as I know, meditation is prayer, sitting quiet and clearing the mind of thoughts relating to our busy society can only be useful for seeking G-d and finding the Divine Nature.

That is why I find a quiet place, and close the door.  My consequence of sitting quiet will be training for what truly matters to me, finding a connection to G-d or a union with the divine.

Below is a simple design and instructions for making your own cushion to sit on in your room I found on line. Have fun making a cushion for yourself and sit quietly you will be surprised in the results, no matter what you call it.

  1. Cushion (Safu) 7”x 14” about 7 pounds filled with Kapok fiber or buckwheat hulls 4.5 pounds, consider using recycled materials, such as old clothing, towels, or similar.  (Do I need one?  Nope.)th (5)


  • Length of cloth 59 inches long, 6 inches to 9 inches wide.
  • Two circles of cloth, each with a diameter of 11 inches to 13 inches.
  • Optional zipper
  1. Rosary (Mala) Prayer Beads (Do I need one? Nope.)
  2. Square Mat (Do I need one? Nope.)
  3. Quiet room with the door closed I just close my eyes. (Do I need one? Yep.)




Quote of the week:


We have practiced virtue and done what is right, turning our desire towards God and His will, and directing our

incensive power, or wrath, against the devil and sin.  What then do we still lack?  Inward meditation.

St Isaiah the Solitary

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Proverb of the week:

“The days of our years are seventy, and of the most valiant eighty years, yet their strength is labor and sorrow; for it is soon cut off, and we fly away”

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“Think Outside the Box” Written by Ronald L. Riedell

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“Think Outside the Box”

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As I ponder the saying,”Think Outside the Box”, the saying implies that I am inside a box.  Did I die, or am I dead, that I need to think outside the box?  Is there a void around me or is the void within me?

In my way of thinking the saying means that creativity is clouded by the traditional and proper way of doing things, where everyone including myself is taught the same things in the same way. I voluntarily allowing myself to become trapped inside a prison of self-induced slavery by my own closed mind.

How difficult it is for me to break through the facade of learning?

How do I cross over the bridge of change with an unfettered mind into the spiritual life?

From my birth, my mother at times taught me with violence and unkind words to use the toilet.  It wasn’t until I had kids myself I realized why my mother wanted me to use the toilet.

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Not so I didn’t have to sit in dirty diapers, it was so my mother didn’t have to change them. My learning to use the toilet was a mandatory form of social conditioning that enabled me to function in society, keep the world population safe from disease, and save her a lot of work.  I am speculating that it was to save her a lot of work…

With that said, how many other things am I taught to benefit others? Eating healthy?  Who benefits from my health besides me?  My employer, my family, the insurance company when I stay out of the hospital.

My mother was the one who benefited from my learning to use the toilet.  Just as others sometimes benefit from my learning to do things inside the box.

set up“In an all boy family mothers teach their boy’s to keep the toilet set up. Because little boy are hard to train and are poor aims” (LOL)

“Thinking outside the box”, is risk management based on educated guesses.  Think about it, where do jet fighter pilots or astronauts go to the bathroom?astronut

I guess NASA engineers think outside the box.





Quote of the week: 

In the whole range of evil thoughts, none is richer in resources than self-esteem; for it is to be found almost

everywhere, and like some cunning traitor in a city it opens the gates to all the demons.

St Isaiah the Solitary

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 “The horse is prepared against the day of battle: but safety is of the LORD.”

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“Know who you are” Written by Ronald L. Riedell

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“Know Who You Are”

Here and now is all I know. I have a shirt that says,” So far this is the oldest I have ever been.” No matter where I go I get a smile from people I don’t even know. Because it is true.

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Time is relative to the prespective of my own point of view. I can, through my own imagination, go into the past or future. But what I encounter in the case of the past is a distorted view of what really happened. My future is a personal persective  based on my own beliefs and world view experience by me or taught to me by others.

How do I get to know myself? Who I am?

All I know is that I am here and now and that I know nothing at all. How can I know what I don’t know?  My birth is only spectulation from years of social conditioning drilled into me by well meaning people who I have learned to trust.

Was I really born, or did I  journey through a darkened cavern where my memory was erased to learn reliance on others. The more self reliant I become, the more I realize that I need others.

Am I a part of a whole? (No pun intended)


Quote of the week:


All of us, from birth up to the age of twelve, uncritically allow our senses to be controlled by the objects of sense-perception, because our power of discrimination has not yet been purified. We let our senses obey sensory objects as if they were the masters; our sense of sight is controlled by things visible, our hearing by sounds, our taste by flavors, our sense of smell by odors, and our sense of touch by physical objects. Because we are children, we cannot   discriminate between the various things we perceive or offer any opposition to them. But when our judgment starts to mature and. we become aware of the harm we are suffering, we at once begin to think of rebelling against this slavery and escaping from it. And if we continue firm in this resolve, we can escape from these cruel masters and remain forever free.

St Isaiah the Solitary

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  • “Raising hell on December 31to bring in the new year” Written by Ronald L. Riedell
  • “No time for that” Written by Ronald L. Riedell
  • “ Spiritual Confessor” Video interview of a monk by 3SProductions

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Raising hell December 31, to bring in the New Year

In one of the wealthiest nations on earth, we have a tradition of celebrating the New Year on December 31.  With parties, staying up, waiting for the clock to turn to 12:00, eating, drinking, and raising hell.

Historically in 45 B.C., New Year’s Day is celebrated on January 1 for the first time in history as the Julian calendar takes effect.

The Roman Civil calendar attempted to follow the lunar cycle but frequently fell out of phase with the seasons and had to be corrected.

The Roman church became aware of this problem and came up with a new calendar.  In 1582, C.E. the Gregorian calendar was implemented, omitting 10 days for that year and establishing the new rule that only one of every four centennial years should be a leap year.

January 1 was dedicated by the church to the Solemnity of Mary, the Holy Mother of God, a holy day of obligation, and a feast day of the Virgin Mary.

So the question is: Do I celebrate the renewal of the Civil Calendar or the Feast of the Virgin Mary?  January 1 is a National Holiday so I have the day off by law and the choice to choose how to celebrate it.

If I wait up until midnight to enjoy the neighborhood gunfire, I might be too tired to go to church the next day.

Why not just stay home and watch the Rose Parade and the football game on TV I am too tired to go to church anyway.


Story two:

“No Time for That”

While at the Cathedral in the Plaza information booth,

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I was approached by a woman in her early seventies.  She was well dressed and wearing a crucifix.  Not looking up for a moment, she asked me if she could use a piece of paper and a pen.  She was totally engaged in her phone looking for an address.

She was with another woman dressed similarly without the outer cross; however, this woman took the time to smile and say hello to me.  They were with a group of nuns dressed in blue habits.  I tell you this because some of you will recognize the order they were from, please forgive me I do not know.

I was afraid the woman writing was going to have a stroke or heart attack because she was in such a hurry.

The other woman kindly told me that they were taking the nuns sightseeing and had about six places they wanted to see.  However, time was running out and the nuns had to return home.

I motioned by raising and lowering my hand to slow down. and said, “It might be better to see a couple of places you can enjoy than six places you have to hurry through which later become a blur“.

The woman with her smiled and agreed.

Too many times, I myself have been in such a hurry that I missed most of what I went to see.  I’ve treated people rudely or without patience because I am only thinking about myself.

My relationships are like that, would I rather just have small talk with ten people or make one friend by taking the time to get to know them.   However, who knows I might just have made someone’s day by just smiling and saying hello.

Jamie and me

Story three:


  Spiritual Confessor

Starets, or spiritual confessors, are not appointed by any authority; they are simply recognized by the faithful as being people “of the Spirit”. When they are not in prayer or in voluntary seclusion, they receives visitors and spend time with them.


Many of them have a reputation among believers of being able to know the secrets of a person’s heart without having ever previously met the visitor, and having the ability to discern God’s plan for a person’s life.

People often petition them for prayers, believing that their prayers are particularly effective.

This, as all gifts, is believed to come from the Holy Spirit acting through them.




Quote of the week:


Christ our God is born and becomes man by adding to Himself flesh endowed with an intellective soul.  He who

from non-being brings created things into being is Himself born supernaturally of a Virgin who does not

Thereby lose her virginity.  For just as He Himself became man without changing His nature or altering His

Power, so He makes her who bore Him a Mother while keeping her a Virgin.  In this way, He reveals one miracle

Through another miracle, at the same time concealing the one with the other.  This is because in Himself,

According to His essence.  God always remains a mystery.  He expresses His natural hiddenness in such a way

That He makes it the more hidden through the revelation.  Similarly, in the case of the Virgin who bore Him, He

Made her a Mother in such a way that by conceiving Him the bonds of her virginity became even more indissoluble.

St Isaiah the Solitary

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Story of the week:

• “ Go tell it on the mountain”: Written by Ronald L. Riedell
• “ How I found the Messiah” Written by Ronald L. Riedell
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Story one

“Go tell it on the mountain”

This is not the typical Christmas story. Somehow while decorating Christmas trees, making Christmas cookies and giving gifts, Christmas loses its meaning.


The messiah was not a harmless little baby lying in a manger. His parents hid him there because he was in danger of being killed by King Herod.

Who would have thought to look for a newborn baby in with dirty smelly animals: animals that were loud enough to easily mask the crying of a baby.

Jesus Christ, the Messiah or anointed one was born into the world.

“Go tell it on the mountain, over the hills and everywhere;
go tell it on the mountain, that Jesus Christ is born.”

Story two:

“How I Found the Messiah”

I am a surfer with a working knowledge of the ocean waves, and the wild life in it. I have a unique understanding of nature from years of experience. However, I realize there is something out there larger than myself, still unknown to me. I am humbled by it.

I carried a cigarette lighter in Vietnam with an inscription that said, “Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil, because I am the meanest son of a bitch in the valley.” The lighter also had inscribed inscriptions etched of all the places in the world I had been.

I tell you this because I can…

One of the turning points in my life was when I saw a man named “Barry Mcguire in 1976, thirty-eight years ago when I was 23 “ on a television show called,” Anyone But Jesus”

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I knew at that time I was missing something and I wanted what he had found. He not only talked about Jesus he, lived the life. I saw no fault or hypocrisy in what he was doing.




Quote of the week:

We should always act as if we were going to die tomorrow; yet we should treat our body as if it was going to
live for many years. The first cuts off the inclination to listlessness, and makes the us more diligent; the second keeps our body sound and our self control well balanced.

St Isaiah the Solitary

One more song: Callin’ Me Home ( We are never alone)

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Proverb of the week:

He who is covered with other people’s clothes is naked

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“Who Told You That You Were Naked”

“I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.” “Who told you that you were naked?


Today we don’t hide, we fall asleep, in a self induced sleep.

Wake up my friends, the game is over. The words on the internet are not free, poets and prophets are cursed with poverty as they proclaim their truth in cyber space, while their intended audience sleeps in a self-induced sleep with deaf ears.

As poets say: age creeps in without warning and people find themselves with no family, no friends, and no lovers. The only thing left is independence and when the money is gone, that too goes.

Most do not realize the price of being asleep until they are 40 or 50 years old. When they wake up from a self-induced sleep they found in Junior High school or college, they wrongly believe the lie that there is no G-d and that they are the masters of their life, only to realize later in life that the world is a small place and there is something bigger than themselves out there.

Never really living life in reality, because they were deceived into believing a lie, they are now faced with no family and their parents and friends dying and there wondering what life is all about, wondering why they feel so alone.

If this sounds negative and bleak, it is. The time bandit, which is a self induced sleep brought on by my being too busy to stop what I am doing, to be silent and realize the presence of G-d is here and now, the time bandit has also robbed me of part of my life; fortunately, for me, I woke up a long time ago in Vietnam. But, there are others my age just now waking up, trying to find the life they lost.

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“Who told you you were naked? “ Why are you afraid?

Why is it I feel uncomfortable naked in front of others? Who told me I was naked?

Brother Ron believes it is the same voice that told me I was destroying my body, when I felt pain the same voice that told me I was doing good when I did good things to other, by making me feel good after I did it. It is the voice of my conscience setting me on the true path.

Nature cries out to me everyday when I see the ocean, the snow covered mountains, and a baby crying. There is something bigger than myself. I am not the creator because I did not create me.

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I can easily condition myself to become naked by becoming callous to myself and in front of others, but the voice of conscience always seems to come back as I sense something is wrong about being naked.
I am not a saint or a spiritual guide. I am a man who has lived 61 years in this place we call earth, sober, and have experienced more than most only read about. I seek G-d and the truth.

When I see people waking up from a self-induced sleep I feel for them because I know how long the path is and how discouraging it can be when you fall off the path.

The parable of the ten virgins warned me to become spiritually ready for a life of seeking. Not just sitting at home, but going out to search for the truth with plenty of light and extra oil for my lamp. The extra oil is for the journey because it may be longer that I expect.

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Sadly, my oil is not enough for everyone, not even enough for the ones I LOVE THE MOST.

My journey will be soon over at an hour I am unaware. I am writing this blog for my kids and grandkids to give them some of my thoughts. It is your faith that will unite you with the love of G-d not mine.
Please forgive my ignorance and lack of knowing the truth; it is only my journey and what I have come to believe.

Quote of the week:

If your heart comes to feel a natural hatred for sin, it has defeated the causes of sin and freed itself from them.
Keep hell’s torments in mind; but know that your Helper is at hand. Do nothing that will grieve Him, but say to
Him with tears: ‘Be merciful and deliver me, 0 Lord, for without Thy help I cannot escape from the hands of
my enemies.’ Be attentive to your heart, and He will guard you from all evil.

St Isaiah the Solitary
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